Origins Blogfest


I've been writing for most of my life. I remember making up stories and poems as far back as five. When I was nine, I formed a "Poetry Club" with my best friend. Words have always had a huge part in my life, but it wasn't until fifth grade that I really felt them take hold of me.

Mrs. McDaniel was my fifth grade Language Arts teacher. She was my favorite teacher. Pleasant and passionate and funny. On the first day of class, she handed us all spiral-bound notebooks and told us we'd be keeping a journal about stories we read and such. One of our assignments was to write a story. I don't remember the specifics of mine, but it was outlandish, I'm sure. Something straight from the brain of a fantasy author. After Mrs. McDaniel read it, she left a note on the top of the page, telling me what a great writer I was. An affirmation of all my scribbling and scrawling in journals, an acknowledgement that it wasn't for nothing. Mrs. McDaniel may not have realized it at the time, but she changed my life that day.

Two years later, I was an insecure, awkward middle-schooler just trying to find my way through life. Mrs. Potter was my English teacher that year. We read The Diary of Anne Frank. I don't know if it was Mrs. Potter's encouraging notes on my assignments or the words and passion of Anne, but when I left that classroom at the end of seventh grade, there was no turning back. I was a full-blown writer, having a love affair with words.

Ever since then, I've been writing. For years, I wanted to be a songwriter. I would spend hours and hours and days in my room, writing lyrics to songs I imagined the likes of Mariah Carey and LeAnn Rimes singing someday. It's still a silly little dream I harbor. Alas, I never learned to play an instrument well enough to write music to accompany all those lyrics.

When I was thirteen, I decided to give fiction a try. I wrote all these silly stories about girls my age and the ludicrous things that happened to them. I still have a binder filled with hand-written pages. Unfinished stories that only served to spark my love of words even more.

At fifteen, I was obsessed with Harlequin romances. I'd devour dozens of them a week. I loved them so much I decided to try writing one. My first attempt at a romance novel was sloppy and awkward and a tremendous learning experience. I wrote two more after that, learning along the way. I bought books about writing and soaked up all the information I could from the internet. A few years and two and a half more novels later, I decided my writing wasn't suited for Harlequin. No, it demanded something else. A story that was about more than Boy Meets Girl. That's when Tierney was born.

The first draft of that novel changed everything. I fought harder to learn more and give these characters the life they deserved. I finished the first draft, enrolled in a class specifically aimed at novel-writing, rewrote the story, then wrote it again. At some point, life got in the way and I sat it aside. I sat all my writing aside.

It wasn't until 2009 that I decided to fight for my writing again. I took part in NaNoWriMo and wrote a whole new story. I loved that story and those characters and I worked hard at revising it all throughout that year. When November came around again, I decided to pick Tierney back up. Sure, it was a completed draft, but I knew this story wouldn't get told right if I didn't have the intense deadline of NaNoWriMo to push me.

I rewrote the entire thing. Switched it from third-person to first. Added a new subplot and took out the male POV. What resulted is the best thing I've written thus far. I'm so excited to take what I've learned from all the trial and error and experimentation and apply it to new stories down the line.

So, there you have it. My writing origins. Now, scurry off and read all the other great stories!



Handing Over Your Baby


It is one of the scariest things for a writer: handing the story you've labored over for months (maybe years) to someone else. Waiting with your heart in your throat while they read it. The sick feeling in the pit of your stomach when you get an email from them, chock full of their thoughts about your baby.

It's terrifying.

I've been living with this feeling for months.

The three amazing ladies who beta'd my book were prompt, kind and insightful with their advice on how to improve my work, and I am forever grateful. I won't hesitate to ask them to beta for me again. But there is one more person, a non-writer, who still hasn't given me my book back.

This is the trouble with non-writers. They don't understand what a big deal it is for a writer to ask them to read their work. They don't get that it's pretty much the scariest thing for a writer to do. That the stack of papers in their hand, the file in their email box, is exactly like a child for that writer. It takes courage to ask someone to read your work. It's terrifying.

So, what do you do when you hand a non-writer your book and months go by without a word? I've asked casually, pretending it's not a big deal. I've tried hinting that I would like it back by the New Year so I can start working on it again. Nothing has worked. This particular non-writer is an avid reader who zips through books like no other. Was it wrong of me to assume they'd be finished with mine relatively fast? Does it mean they are bored with my book? That it doesn't live up to their standards? Or are they just taking their time so I get detailed feedback?

I feel insulted and hurt that I still don't have my baby back in my hands. I try not to, but...it's a huge deal that isn't being taken very seriously. It was a huge deal that took a ton of courage. Shouldn't they feel privileged? Shouldn't they want to do their best and get it back to me? Instead of letting it collect dust only God knows where?


So, have you ever handed your baby over to a non-writer? Did they take it seriously? How soon did you get it back? What would YOU do if you were me?


Mixtape Monday - The First Album I Ever Owned

So, I was listening to music this morning as I worked on my (boring) homework and a song came on. It was a song I hadn't heard in a while and had forgotten about. Immediately, I started singing along. I still knew every word. I still loved this song. What song, you ask?

This one:


Do any of you remember Expose`? I was a kid when they were really popular, but I vividly remember receiving the cassette tape for Christmas. Yes, cassette tape! It was the first album I'd ever owned. Before that, all my songs were recorded off the radio. Anyone remember doing that?

Anyway, I loved that tape. It had so many great songs on it, a good portion of which were written by the amazing Diane Warren. Like this one:



And this one:


Just listening to these takes me back to when I was a kid, alone in my room, blaring these songs and singing like I knew what they were about. They don't really make music like this anymore, do they?

So, what about you? Do you remember these songs? Cassette tapes? What was the first album YOU owned?


A Quick Drop-In

I've been swamped with homework and the day job, but I thought I'd swing by and say hi to all you wonderful people in the blog world. So...hi!

Also, I've entered two blogfests. It's been SO LONG since I've done a blogfest, on account of my lack of time, but these ones sounded fun:

The Origin Blogfest:


And the A to Z April Challenge



I did the A to Z challenge last year and had a blast. I'm looking forward to doing it again this year, as well as the Origin Blogfest. At the very least, it'll give me a reason to post something, instead of completely forgetting that I HAVE a blog most days!

Anyway, how is everyone? How's your writing going? Is your New Year all that you'd hoped for so far? Are YOU doing either of these blogfests? Maybe another one I haven't heard of yet?



Ready, Set, Go!




So...2012, huh?

Despite my 2011 recap post and the fact that I watched that ball drop in NYC with my very own eyes (on TV, anyway), I still can't believe it's a brand new year. 2011 flew by, didn't it?

It was a good year, though. I feel like I got a lot accomplished and ended on a high note.

As for 2012, I hope it goes just as well.

I realize that I didn't make any resolutions in my last post. And, honestly, I don't know where to start. But for the sake of tradition, I will compile a list of things I hope to accomplish throughout this shiny, new year.

1. Finish revising Playing Nice. This is the book I've been working on for many, many years. 2010's NaNoWriMo novel and the project I keep going back to. I love the story and the characters and I want to do them justice. Last year, I shipped it off to some writerly friends (each and every one of you are FABULOUS, by the way) and got some great feedback. I've gone through and cleaned up the typos (OH, the typos!) and now I'm ready to dig into the big changes. I can't wait till it's finished!

2. Learn to write a kick-ass query letter What's the point in polishing my story if I'm not gonna send it out into the big, bad world, right?

3. Finally get my driver's license. Yeah, so I'm a little too old to not have a driver's license. And, really, unless you're Barbra Walters, you can't get away with it. So, this is the year I'm going to get that darn thing. Parallel parking will NOT get the best of me again!

4. Finish up my Associate's Degree One more math class after this semester and this one's done.

5. Keep looking for a new job. The one I have now is okay for paying bills, but it's not something I want to do forever. Definitely not. It's too stressful with it's crazy hours and awful customer experiences. I'd like a job that doesn't leave me feeling murderous at the end of my shift. And maybe one that will let me out in time to cook dinner when I get home.

6. Keep reading I may not have the most time between work and school and writing, but darn it, how else am I going to keep that well of inspiration filled to the brim? There are lots of great books out there by amazing writers and I plan to take advantage of that and learn all I can from them.

7. Keep writing. Okay, so I've kind of fallen off the writing wagon as of late, due to school and work, but writing means the world to me and I refuse to let it fall by the wayside. Been there, done that, won't do it again. No, no matter how busy I get, how full my plate is, I will keep writing. It's what I love. It's who I am.

So there we have it. Seven resolutions for 2012. They're good ones, don't you think? Nice and achievable.

Did you make any resolutions for the new year?




2011: Year In Review

Here we are again. Another year older, another year wiser?

Well, another year older, anyway.

I'm sitting here, looking back on 2011. I can't believe it's coming to an end in a matter of days. New Year's Eve always makes me sad because another year has gone by. On the other hand, the brand new year is like a fresh start, a chance to make good on the things you said you'd do the year before but never got to.

Which leads me to the tried and true Resolutions portion of this post. Last year, I made a few

resolutions

:

1. Complete NaNo '10 first draft.

2. Finish revising NaNo '09 novel.

3. Read at least one book a month -- it's less than I read this year, but with school, who knows how much time I'll have.

4. Blog semi-regularly. At least twice a week!

5. Write every day -- even if it's only a hundred words scribbled in my journal!

So, how did I do? Well...I finished my NaNo '10 novel, but I didn't touch '09's. I had less time to read than I anticipated, especially in the summer, but I squeezed a few books in here and there. The last two are epic fails. Anyone who reads my blog knows that I've been more absent than here this year. I successfully completed the A-Z Blogfest, which was fun, but other than that, I posted sporadic updates. And I most definitely did NOT write every day. Nope That didn't happen.

But let's take a look at what DID happen (if only to make me feel better about myself):

1. I revised the novel from NaNo '10 - twice. AND shipped it off to beta readers. I'm really proud and excited about this. This particular novel has been stirring around in my brain for upwards of 5 years. I wrote a couple previous drafts and let them fall by the wayside because something just wasn't quite right. But I chose it for NaNo last year, changed the POV and pushed through it. And what I ended up with is the best thing I've ever written. I've seen what I can do and I can't wait to take what I've learned from this story and apply it to something new. Also, I'm excited to polish this one up and maybe dip my toes in the waters of submissions.

2. I completed 3 semesters of school and now I'm two classes short of my Associate's (finally). AND I'm holding down a 3.89 GPA. Not too shabby, right?

3. I decided what I'm going to school for. Once I finish up my Associate's, I'm getting my Bachelor's in Communications. God knows where I'll go from there, but at least I've got a general idea, right?

4. I conquered my fear of driving and am ready to finally get a gosh darn driver's license. I refuse to be a weirdo any longer!

These last ones aren't accomplishments, but they did help make 2011 a fantastic year:

5. I attended the best concert of my life and got to meet the most amazing singer ever:

 

So, all things considered, 2011 was a pretty great year for me. For once, I'm definitely looking forward to the next year!

What about you? How did 2011 treat you? Do you have any resolutions?

Every Little Thing Is Gonna Be Alright

December first.

All over the world, writers are reveling in their NaNoWriMo victories. Me, I'm wallowing in a deep, deep pool of depression, taunted by the numbers 3712.

3712. That's what I finished NaNo with.

I fizzled out rather early, resigning myself to the fact that I wasn't going to make it this year. Even so, when November 30th came around and my word count hadn't budged since the first week of November, I was bummed.

I tip my hat to all of you who reached 50k. Congratulations on such an awesome feat. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a bit jealous. But, I've decided to be philosophical about the whole thing.

I wasn't excited about my idea. That would have made for very flat characters and a painfully dull story. So really, it's for the best that I didn't push on. Now, I'll have time to polish last year's story to a gleaming, glorious shine. I'm okay with not finishing this year. Really, I am.

There's always next year.

Or Camp NaNoWriMo.

Anyway, how did YOU do this year? Did you conquer that 50k?

NaNoFail & LeAnn Rimes

It's official, folks. NaNoWriMo wiped the floor with me this year. It's the 21st day and my word count sits steadily at about 3500. It SHOULD be just over 35k. I'd need a miracle to catch up now.

I think my problem was, I just wasn't excited about my idea this year. For the last two years, I couldn't wait till November first to start writing. I was so excited I couldn't stand it. My ideas, my characters, were screaming to be written. This year...I had a couple of ideas whispering for my attention, but none of them fought hard enough for my ear. So instead of one idea with a ton of energy and strong characters, I had half-developed characters and lackluster ideas.

That's not to say the ideas themselves are lackluster. Just that I didn't have them fully-developed enough to really dig in on November first.

I'm not gonna lie. I'm bummed. I really wanted to win for the third year in a row. I wanted that Shiny New Idea to mold and shape throughout next year.

Ah, well. I can brush up my current novel and get it all pretty and shiny instead.

Anyway, if any of you are friends with me on Facebook or Twitter, you've already heard (and heard and heard and heard) about this. If not, then you're hearing now.

This passed Wednesday, we attended the LeAnn Rimes concert I received tickets for on my birthday way back in June. Now, if you know anything about me, you know that LeAnn Rimes is my absolute favorite singer, ever. I've been a fan since I was 12. We've practically grown up together. I've seen her in concert twice before, but this time I had FRONT ROW SEATS! I've never been that close at any show, ever. So you can imagine my excitement, right?

Anyway, we got to the venue and there was a booth outside that the local radio station had set up. Enter to win a meet and greet, the sign said. I entered, of course. I knew I wouldn't win. I never win. So my hopes weren't up. Dana also entered and then we found our seats.

Just before the opening act came on, Dana's phone rang and she took off to answer it. Ten minutes and lots of confusion later, she came back to get me, saying that we had won the meet and greet.

I'm still in disbelief. I'd met LeAnn once before, back in '05, but I didn't think it'd happen this year. Standing in that line to meet her, I was just like a teenager waiting to meet the Backstreet Boys or a preteen meeting Bieber. I could NOT contain my excitement.

Sadly, I don't have my picture yet - I have to call the venue this morning to get it. But it doesn't matter. LeAnn was very sweet and gave me a hug. She told me happy birthday and then mentioned our meet on stage.

The show was amazing. I was fascinated by the fact that I could hear her boots clicking on the stage, I was that close. Like, six feet away from LeAnn for the whole show. I'm still in disbelief. I mean, really?







So, what about you? How's your NaNo coming? Is there a singer you'd go all Bieber-fangirl to meet?

NaNo Update

So, I took the plunge. I decided to give NaNoWriMo a go, despite all my other commitments.

How's it going, you ask?

Not so well. I'm only at 1600 words so far. I'm hoping to bulk up my word count before work this morning, but so far I've just managed to putz around on Facebook and the NaNo forum. I'm a spectacular procrastinator.

So, are you doing NaNo? How's YOUR word count looking? Any tips to avoid procrastination?

Naming Characters


I'm definitely leaning toward doing NaNoWriMo. And, so far, the biggest problem I'm running into is, I can't figure out my main character's name.

I picked up an old idea to work with, but the name I'd chosen years ago (Evie) doesn't seem to fit anymore. I've searched books and sites and I keep coming up empty. This character doesn't want to be named, it seems.

I'm trying to veer away from names that end in an -y sound. My last two characters were Mari and Tierney, so I figured it's time for something different. I'm definitely open to suggestions. This character is a feisty commitment-phobe with a penchant for unnatural hair colors and photography. If you can think of a name that seems to fit, I'm all ears!

As a side note of awesomeness, I have the most amazing beta readers ever. No offense to any other beta readers out there, but it's true. They've all got a knack for giving useful feedback without deflating the writer's sensitive ego. Instead of feeling defeated, I'm pumped to start revisions. I can't wait to have a polished, pretty draft in my hands!

So, how do you come up with your character names? Ever have one who refused to be named? Are YOUR beta readers as spectacular as mine?


Positively Indecisive

Despite my best efforts and fabulous list-making skills, I still haven't come to a decision on the NaNoWriMo front. I've got one foot planted more firmly in the Yes camp than the No one, though. Which, I suppose, is a start. I've even started a rough outline for a novel I just may work on next month. Given those facts, I suppose you could say that I HAVE made up my mind to participate. Which is probably true.

But still.

I have reservations.

I'm sure we all know I'll do it, though.

The blogosphere is abuzz with NaNoWriMo posts these days. Seems every writer with a blog has something to say about this fabulous, insane month. And why wouldn't they? NaNo is awesome!

Anyway, I've been hoarding links again. And, you guessed it, most of them are about NaNoWriMo. And so I decided to share them with you lovely people.

Elizabeth Spann Craig of Mystery Writing is Murder shared some great links in her post All about NaNoWriMo

Over at Terrible Minds, there's a super-awesome list of 25 Things You Should Know about NaNoWriMo

And storyfix.com is doing a month-long series, How to Nail Your NaNoWriMo Lots of useful advice here!

Hopefully those of you participating will find some golden nuggets of information in these links. And, heck, even if you're not!

In the meantime, I'm off to figure out what my potential NaNo MC's name will be...

Tipping the Scale


Three days into October and I still haven't decided. I can't seem to make up my mind. I've got one foot planted firmly on each side of the fence. It starts in less than a month. I should be planning already.

If you're lost, I'm talking about NaNoWriMo. I'm torn right down the middle about whether or not I will participate this year. The last two years were easy decisions. Of course I'd do it. Why wouldn't I? It's the best thing since sliced bread! Or the Internet. Or whatever super awesome thing you couldn't live without.

This year, though...oh, boy. I've got a full plate. And so I've resorted to making a Pros and Cons list. Here goes nothing:

Pros:
1. I'd have a ton of words on a new project to work with when Projects One and Two are finished.

2. 50k in 30 days is fantastic practice at just letting go and writing. And isn't that practice we all need?

3. The sense of community from fellow NaNo-ers is unbelievable. Writers, in general, are an amazing group of people. But NaNo-ers? SO great!

4. I'd get a free proof copy for completing the 50k. And, let's face it, holding a hard copy of your book in your hands is one heck of a motivator.

5. Well, NaNo is just FUN.

Cons:

1. I've got a full course load, including a math class I HAVE to pass. And math and I don't get along, so it'll take extra work.

2. I'm also working between 20 and 30 hours a week.

3. I've got a lack of fresh ideas. There are a couple old ones I can dig up and brush off, though.

4. Preparation for the winter holidays. Baking for Thanksgiving, Christmas shopping -- Black Friday, in particular -- random holiday parties that may crop up.

5. Two projects are in various stages of revisions. Shouldn't I work on one of those instead?

Oh, and I'm not putting this one in the Cons list because I'm so darn excited about it that it could never be a Con, but I've also got the LeAnn Rimes concert in mid-November, which will involve driving two hours to Detroit then staying overnight.

So, there you have it. My Pros and Cons list. Neck and neck. Of course. And, here, I thought it would help!

What do you think? Do either of these lists outweigh the other in terms of importance? Am I just over thinking it? Would YOU participate if you were me?


From My Inbox

My email Inbox is stuffed full of links I've sent to myself from my phone. I read blogs and sites on my phone when I'm away from home and bored and ship the ones I want to read again or share here to myself. Today, I figured I'd actually share some of those links!

First up, this wonderful post via Michelle Davidson Argyle at The Innocent Flower. It was actually a guest post on her blog, but the advice is priceless: Simple Things I Wish I'd Known About Writing

Next up is a site I frequent a lot: Storywonk. I love Lani Diane Rich - her novels are fantastic. And that she shares so much advice makes me love her even more. Her podcasts are not only informative, but super entertaining. This particular session is about names. I know all of us struggle with naming our characters at some point or another. I know I did with my last project! Anyway, here it is: By Any Other Name

I loved this post about hope and dreams. One of these days, I'll have to write about the amazing people who fanned the flames of MY writing dreams... Who Started Your Dream?

Alright, that's all for now, folks. I just might have to do a few more installments. My inbox is filled with wonderful blog posts and useful articles! Oh, and if you're wondering if I've made up my mind about NaNoWriMo...well, not yet. I'm sitting down to night to make a Pros and Cons list. I'll let you know how it goes!



To NaNo or Not to NaNo...

So, I've got a dilemma. November is just around the corner. And with November, comes NaNoWriMo. I love NaNoWriMo. NaNoWriMo saved me from a life of no writing. NaNoWriMo is a godsend. If any of you don't know what NaNoWriMo is, well you should be ashamed of yourselves. Not really. But you should definitely check it out.

Usually, this time of year is accompanied by a flurry of words scribbled down in outline form for a new story idea. My tummy is usually full of butterflies of excitement. I can't wait till November 1st, when I can finally start the race of madness. This year though...there are no butterflies. Instead, I'm torn.

I already have so much on my plate, between school and work. Plus, the last two years' worth of NaNo projects are still in revisions. Wouldn't it make more sense to work on those, instead of starting a whole new novel? I mean, isn't that what the logical person would do? But NaNoWriMo is irresistible. I can hear it calling my name. I can hear the jingle of shiny new ideas just waiting to be written.

What IS a girl to do?  

What about you? Are you participating in NaNoWriMo this year? Have you done it before? How do you find the time? 

Monday Mixtape - LeAnn Rimes

This passed Thursday, I was supposed to be sitting front row at a LeAnn Rimes concert. Sadly, it was rescheduled and I had to make due by watching some Youtube videos. And thus this week's Monday Mixtape was born.This is the latest single from LeAnn's upcoming cd (9/27):This is my favorite way to hear LeAnn sing - acoustic, without all the bells and whistles. Plus, this song is very angsty and angry. I love it :) Another acoustic performance of one of LeAnn's most well-known songs:I could go on forever, but I'll stop with one more video. I'd give my right arm to hear this song live:

Monkey Monkey Underpants

I've been so busy since my last entry -- clearly, since I posted nearly two weeks ago! I'd love to stick to a blogging schedule, but I'm not sure how well that would work for me. My brain is a kinda like this:



...oh, Gilmore Girls, how I love you.

Anyway, busy. After I finished typing in all my edits, I shipped my WiP off to three lovely ladies and printed off a copy for a friend who's an avid reader. And now I'm waiting. I'm no good at waiting. My tummy refuses to settle, I can't sit still. I'm a bundle of nerves.

Luckily, one of these ladies started sending me beta thoughts chapter-by-chapter, which helped immensely. And then, I got the full version back from another awesome reader. The results (so far)? Not too bad. There are some things that need work. Some continuity issues that need sorting out -- the little things always trip me up. A few character fixes and plot tweaks. I'm still waiting on the results for the book as a whole, though.

So, how do you deal with the stress and nerves that come from sharing your baby with people? Any tricks or tips to keep me from going completely gray by next week?

Round One: Me


I am jumping up and down on the inside right now. I just finished my first round of revisions. I'm sure there are tons of things that need tweaking and polishing and ironing out, but Round One is complete.

Now, for the hard part: putting all those handwritten revisions into the computer. Hundreds of pages worth. Aye Carumba.

But once that's done, I've got two awesome ladies willing to take a look. I'm also open to anyone else out there letting me know what they think. So, if anyone wants to read a Contemporary Romance/Chick Lit (and maybe you write them, too), let me know!

For now, to celebrate, I'm going to crash. Today will be filled with NOTHING!

How do YOU celebrate your writerly victories?

PS: Hi to all my new followers from The Campaign!

The Spark Blogfest



I've seen a lot of entries for this blogfest floating around, so I decided to throw mine into the mix. Christine Tyler over at The Writer Coaster is hosting the Spark Blogfest. In a nutshell, participants share what books made us realize we were "doomed" to be a writer, what author inspired our current WiP or what book or author changed our world view.

I'm going to share a book and an author.

The first book that made me itch to write was Little Women. I felt a real connection to Jo and her passion for words and I was sort of envious of that passion. I wanted something to feel that strongly for, too!


"I want to do something splendid before I go into my castle, something heroic or wonderful that won't be forgotten after I'm dead. I don't know what, but I'm on the watch for it, and mean to astonish you all some day. I think I shall write books, and get rich and famous, that would suit me, so that is my favorite dream."

The author that inspired me to write came a few years after I read Little Women...



Anne Frank. I read her diary so many times, for years, and always finished feeling so inspired and awestruck. That she was able to remain so positive while going through so much...it's incredible. Whenever I read this line, I'm immediately amazed by this young girl's spirit:

"It's really a wonder that I haven't dropped all my ideals, because they seem so absurd and impossible to carry out. Yet I keep them, because in spite of everything I still believe that people are really good at heart."

How about you? What books inspired you? Authors? Have you read these books?

The Trouble with Dreams


I've always been a writer. From the moment I picked up a pencil and could scrawl words on paper, I've been making up stories. I didn't get serious about it until I was about seventeen. That's when I made my very first attempt at a novel (which will NEVER see the light of day). Since then, I have written five full novels and two half-started attempts. Most of this will never be read by another living soul -- heck, I probably won't even look at some of it. I've learned a lot along the way, and, despite all the hard work and frustration, I've managed to hold on to my love of words.

Publication has always been in the back of my mind. Even if I just wrote the first novel for fun, I wrote the second (and third, and fourth...) with the idea that someday I'd be published. When you're seventeen, a little ole thing like publication doesn't seem like that big a deal. It doesn't seem so hard. But once you grow up, when you start to research the big, bad world of publishing, well...it's an icy cold wake-up call.

But we keep on writing. We keep on dreaming. We push and we strive.

We.

Don't.

Give.

Up.

Even when we have people doubting us. Even when we doubt ourselves. When the writing sucks or the words won't come and we're crying ourselves to sleep. We keep on imagining our names on shiny new covers or bestselling lists. We think about "the call." We go to school and work our day jobs and take care of our families. We seek out careers that will allow us to pursue our dreams.

We are troopers.

Don't get me wrong, I love all this about being a writer. I love knowing I'm not alone in this impossible dream. I love having an entire community full of supportive, wonderful people who understand exactly what I'm going through. I wouldn't want to be anything other than a writer for all this alone.

But I'm struggling. We all are, I know. It's the impossibility of this dream that keeps my feet on the ground, even when my head is in the clouds. I've got to keep a tight grip on reality. And this presents a problem.

I want to write. That's all I want to do. I want to type my days away. But a girl's got to eat. Bills have to be paid. And my minimum wage job is barely cutting it. And so I'm going to school to further my education and get a better job. But what kind of job is there for someone who has never wanted anything but to write for a living?

What about you? Do you feel the pressure of the real world trying to smother The Dream? How do you keep going? What do YOU do for a living?

Riddle Me This


I am a plotter. A hardcore, twenty-page outline plotter. I can't even think about starting a new project without knowing a chapter-by-chapter account of what happens.

So, tell me why the first two steps in my revisions are always to cut the first two chapters and completely rearrange the next five.

I can't understand it. What's the point of my long, in-depth outlines if the end result doesn't match the outline at all? All that energy and time put into planning out the novel. All the meticulous crossing off of events as I write them, including bits of description and dialogue from the outline...argh!

Used to be, when I finished a first draft, I was fairly confident all the elements were there, even if they were a bit messy. But now...well, now I expect revisions to be a long, dramatic and complicated process.

In case you haven't figured it out, I've started revising my most recent WiP. And, just like the last one (that I still have to go back and finish), the first two chapters hit the cutting room floor. And then, reading through without those chapters, I realized some events occurred to soon and so I had to rearrange the next three chapters.

It's enough to make a girl go gray, I swear.

What about you? Plotter or Pantser? What does your revision process look like?